My Credo: I’ll Figure it Out. I’ll Make This Happen

I am officially declaring that I will make Operation: Alpha Dog a success.

There. I declared it to you, the Net world, and the Universe. I’m now totally accountable and responsible for this to happen. Not just because Steve needs this. Not because we signed a document to a service dog company. But because I require this to happen. I *need* for this dog to come into Steve’s life and I *need* for this pair to happen. It sounds greedy, but it’s not. He needs this so I can participate in my life and my well being to make us a stronger, better couple. I’m declaring this whole thing is a Go.

I am officially striking the sentence “I don’t know what to do” out of my world. It was just as tough to type that is it was to exclaim it out to the Universe. I have 40 years worth of life experience that most people couldn’t even dream about to tap into and glean information from. Why is it, that that little phrase has turned what could be an amazing opportunity into a Drama Filled Crap Sack? From here on in, I’ll figure this out. I’ll just figure this whole thing out.

I’ll. Figure. This. Out.

I’m a noob at this whole fundraising/raising awareness, thing. My background didn’t include the political nuances; rather it was a just show up to the fundraiser as needed and volunteer to make something. Having been told that this is totally impossible you’re gonna fail, of course my noob mind is going to latch onto the negative, that’s the EASY thing to do! The hard thing to do is remember, being new at this makes is all a total blank page. Who says I can’t write to celebrities and inform them of our situation? Who says I can’t drop an email to our Congressional and Senatorial people and inform them of this loop hole? Who says? My Family? My Friends?

If they respect me, then they’ll back my play and they will know why.

It’s not insulting. It’s not degrading. It’s a life experience that I will make happen.

Am I sacred? Oh Hell yeah I’m scared! But I think it’s that fear of utter failure, of not succeeding that has been consistently driving me forward to find that new blank page, to find that new source of information. The more you know the more you grow, right? Or, as my Mamma used to say “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!”